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here ya be... [May. 20th, 2004|02:39 pm]



Name:David Micheal Alder
Sex:(yes please) Male
Hobbies/interests:Music, writing, LJ, Movies, and various other commonly mentioned things that are mere superficialities at this point. See my User Info page, if you really wanna know.

A) 5-10 top favorite bands with a brief description:

311 - By far one of the most inventive bands of our day, successfully intermingling such musical genres as rap, reggae, hip hop, funk, and latin.

Santana - Classic latin/blues group that has influenced much of our modern groups. Carlos Santana is arguably one of the greatest lead and blues guitarists of any age.

Pink Floyd - The GODS of progressive rock. No one could ever match their musical creativity and emotionally charged lyrics/riffs without either getting entirely fucked up on H, or worse; losing their sanity in the process. Pure musical genius.

Early Elton John, (before he went all "adult contemporary" on us) - One of the most versatile performers both vocally and instrumentally.

Soundgarden/Chris Cornell - Not only were they one of the most influential bands of our day, but they were also geniuses off stage. While being Ivy League graduates with degrees in subjects like Microbiology, they were never the 'conformist' types, either in their music, or in life. Chris cornell has one of the most soulful voices ever. Plain and simple.

David Bowie - Strange is his calling card, and inventive is his MO. With a voice that sounds like he could use some lozenges from the harsh mistreating of his vocal range and abilities, pushing them beyond their physical limits, he managed for over 20 years to be one of the most sought after Gods of Rock. Without a classification to his style, he has been an artist without boundaries.

L) top 5 albums of all time: this is moot, because any of the above bands' albums would fall into this category for me, hands down.

B) 5 favorite books/authors including at least one nonfiction selection:

Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien

Man's Search For Meaning, Viktor Frankl

The Plague, Albert Camus

Tao Te Ching, Lao Tzu

Zen Teachings of the Great Mountain, Taizan Maezumi Roshi

Tao of Pooh, (I forgot his name... been years Ben something).

The Andromeda Strain, Michael Crichton

C) 5 favorite films/directors/writers:

D) Any favorite comedians?
Drew Carey
Emo Philips
Bill Cosby (old stuff)
Ellen Degeneres

E) Favorite Artists? Why? What medium do they work in?
My Father: he's a great singer, and also a great photographer.
Ian Mckellen: one of the most passionate actors that has gone TOO FAR unnoticed for his contributions, prior to LOTR, to stage/film acting .
My best friend Matt: Vocalist and keyboards for the local band Sigma 6.

F) 5 great things that have come out of TEXAS: "Steers and queers..." no, um... Texans for one, beef, oil... um, I'm really unfamiliar with Texas. Forgive me on this one. I do know that there's a certain guy there that I happen to like. Is that enough?

Question Forum: Try to answer at least 5 of the following with explanations as to why you have chosen that viewpoint... Convince me.

1) Abortion: pro-choice or pro-life? (legally and personally)
*It should only be allowed under the circumstances of rape, incest, or possible life-threatening situations of mother vs baby. Needless killing of any kind is evil, because any other situation basically is an expression of the selfishness and cruelty of those who just "don't want the baby". Adoption is available to willing and waiting parents who couldn't have children any other way.

2) Gay marriages:
*The basis of making Gay marriages illegal is based upon Judeo-Christian dogmas, and shouldn't be forced upon those who do not believe in such doctrines, on any level. To do so is counter to the Constitution, and the God-given rights of every human being on this Earth.
Let them marry.

5) War in general:
*When global community standards, or ground rules are broken (human rights, etc), and the guilty refuse to rectify their misdoings, nor even get accountable for what they create (ie; mass slaughter, totalitarian regimes, and so on), then someone should take a stand for the innocent who are being trounced upon, and defend them by ANY MEANS NECESSARY. But coming to the point of using such measures (war) should also be avoided at all costs, if it is possible.

7) The Lakers:(Specifically Shaq or Kobe) What about the Yankees?(specifically A-rod or Jeter)
*Professional sports are the single greatest whoring-out of our free time that we could possibly conceive, because, why on EARTH would we want to PAY these whiny primadonnas millions of dollars to do something so inane as basketball?

9) If you HAD to fuck an animal, what animal would you choose?
*Definitely a dog: a female Great Dane, but don't read too much into that.

11) Drugs? Legitimacy of legalities, penalties, dangers, etc. go to town with it.
Making drugs into a legal business is a subject that I've discussed before, and I tend to agree with certain points, however, I think I've more than fulfilled your requirements to this point, and I would like to save such a discussion for a later date.

Oh, and I almost forgot... I told my sister here:

Here are my pictures:


[User Picture]From: grodeetoe
2004-06-11 11:01 am (UTC)
i'm surprised that for someone in such an involved type religion you don't attribute any of who you are to god. and i guess in a way i do. among other things.

all i'm saying is. we are who we are. you can't fight it. you CAN choose to ignore it. but you're ignoring it. it doesn't change who you are. it just makes you a liar. well, that's harsh. but if you feel a certain way and you deny yourself that thing. sure, you've made a choice. you've gone against whatever (i am not at all going to attribute any of this to the "powers that be" because they don't want us to be queer as it is), but that's all. you've just chosen to ignore it. it's still there. the choice is not whether it's there or not. it's whether to admit it or not.
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[User Picture]From: burninglotus
2004-06-14 12:05 am (UTC)
Oh I've admitted it. I'm clear about it. In no unclear terms, my penis gets hard whenever I see a naked man, but nothing really happens with a woman. So I'm quite aware of it. There's no denial. But why should I let my libido decide my life for me? I tend to fall in love with women... they have my heart. But men have my attractions. Why? Why is that?

Well, I certainly have attributed it to God. In fact that's partially why I've become so bitter in my relationship with Him, is because I feel that it's all just a cruel joke. A kid with a magnifying glass frying ants. He gives me these desires, which are some of the strongest feelings that any human could experience, and then he tells me, "you can't touch it... don't use it... don't do it." And I've already made promises not to! But if I did, the an eternal punishment would ensue. It must be pretty funny from His point of view.

So what do I do? Continue hating God for this, and then intentionally doing the very thing that he doesn't want me to? A kind of metaphysical rebellion? Well that sounds like the very thing that a certain "Satan" would want me to do, right? Oh sure, I could find other religions to fill the gap, but then there'd always be something missing for me.

Or how about this... continue living life as if everything was normal, never tell my girlfriend, marry her, have kids, and then during a moment of extreme weakness due to whatever mid-life crisis is going on in my life, give in and commit an act that is counter to everything that I've stood for, betraying the trust of my wife and whomever is a part of my life.

Or what about this... I experiment. I slowly let it slip into my life, and then in a teary, doe-eyed look I can say to God, "I didn't mean to..." Think He'd buy it?

Or as you say, I could ignore it. I block it out of my consciousness completely and just keep living my life out until I either snap and go into a barrage of promiscuous behavior, or by some miracle I actually get through the entirety of my life, and die with my secret.

Some take the easy way out... they kill themselves. But that's not an option. A non-issue.

But what about the possibility of being completely open and honest about it? I'd be fully aware of my attractions, and I know how I work in that regard; I'd know what "gets me going" and I would choose to avoid it. But I'd not be in this alone... I'd be most likely married to a woman who'd know fully well about this issue; my weaknesses and strengths, and be supportive along the whole way. She'd even be patient and loving enough to take the time necessary to "make things work" in the bedroom. Now, if my kids ever began to show "signs" at an early age, I would never let it affect the level of love or care that I continue to offer my children. However, I would teach them what I've learned and allow them the space to make their own decisions, and still lovingly support them as my children... come what may.

But you're right... if I didn't admit what was honestly going on for me, I'd be a liar. That's why I've been searching within myself over these past few years; because I've come to know that I don't know what's really going on inside me! I'm on the verge of an enormous breakthrough in my life, and I would be a liar if I was to just jump into straight marriage, or into my first homosexual encounter simply because I happen to have a hardon whenever I see steamy pictures of some nameless, beefy model in a porn shot.
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[User Picture]From: grodeetoe
2004-06-14 11:05 am (UTC)
you are the way you are because you are Andy Warhol. i guess i just can't fully wrap my mind around where you're coming from. not in the least. i've never done the strict religion thing in a strict way. i have this relationship with god. we have this understanding. i don't think he hates me or cares much about ass sex. we have a don't ask don't tell sort of policy. in any case, i don't believe in the after life as being heaven or hell either and i suppose that helps. i also don't really believe in satan really, which helps a helluva lot. maybe that's why it took me so long to realize that i was what i was, whether i was repressing it or not. maybe i just really had to get all of my beliefs aligned before i woke up to anything to keep from being so confused. maybe i did it on purpose in my sleep. i don't know. my attraction to men is not strictly based on their genitalia though. there is just a differentconnection than there is with a woman and i don't think i can be me and be with a woman at the same time anymore. guy-girl relationships make me a little bit of someone else i think. i don't know. this sort of thing is very confusing. in general. and things canbe tough. i suppose. for you especially tough. i'm sure everything will work out alright for you though.
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[User Picture]From: burninglotus
2004-06-15 03:27 am (UTC)
I certainly hope it will. I have every intention of my life working out for me, despite the tough times. I only hope that I'll still have friends.
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[User Picture]From: grodeetoe
2004-06-15 10:42 am (UTC)
well, either way you go you'll find some sort of happiness i'm sure.

for the record, i am not a tool of satan. thank you.


that's all.....

hey, are you like not allowed to masturbate?
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[User Picture]From: burninglotus
2004-06-15 07:58 pm (UTC)
"hey, are you like not allowed to masturbate?"

heh... not officially...

I never said that you were a tool of satan... I'm saying that he influences to do what God doesn't want us to.
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[User Picture]From: grodeetoe
2004-06-16 11:00 am (UTC)
so you try really hard not to fiddle with your penis?

even though you consider me a tool of satan, i'm really glad you're not homophobic because a lot of guys in your position would turn that direction instead of in the confusing direction you've chosen.
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[User Picture]From: burninglotus
2004-06-16 06:31 pm (UTC)
I don't try to not fiddle with my fiddlestick... it's almost a nightly ordeal.

Confusing, yes... homophobic, certainly not... lonely and open to both gender options while sorting out this mess, right on.
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[User Picture]From: grodeetoe
2004-06-17 11:05 am (UTC)
better than being a hermit like me?
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[User Picture]From: burninglotus
2004-06-18 02:29 am (UTC)
hermit? whatever... you probably date more than I do, and not just because I'm in China...

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[User Picture]From: grodeetoe
2004-06-18 11:16 am (UTC)
i have not been on a date in over two years. nothing as official as that. nothing at all really in all actuality. i am as single as they come. i got all my virginity way back.

with the way you flirt with everyone, you certainly get a shitload of action (and by action i mean dates)......
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[User Picture]From: burninglotus
2004-06-21 12:21 am (UTC)
hmm, well the internet tends to coax a little more confidence out of me than usual, however, I'm really not that big of a flirt. maybe I am. now I don't know. hmm...
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[User Picture]From: grodeetoe
2004-06-21 11:31 am (UTC)
well, i don't know how youare in person at all. i can only go by what i see with my own little internet eyes, you FLIRT.
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[User Picture]From: burninglotus
2004-06-22 01:07 am (UTC)
*coy giggle*

okay... so you caught me. is it such a bad thing?
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[User Picture]From: grodeetoe
2004-06-22 10:55 am (UTC)
to flirt?

flirting is mostly harmless i suppose.
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